Chris' Poem

The first of the many times
You walked through that door
I didn't realize
You're also walking into my life
And I just stood there, watching
Your hands clasped in prayer

But I will forget the smile that played on your lips
And the dimples that appeared on your cheeks
While you looked at me, your eyes soft
I will forget the times you made me laugh
The words you said that touched my heart
And that time when I told myself you're my natural high

I will forget the times I felt paralyzed
When uncertainties would eat me up inside
And insecurities envelope my young mind
The sleepless nights I spent solving the puzzle
That is you, guessing your opinion of me
Could we ever be what I dreamt we'd be?

It must be exhausting
Pushing and pulling myself this way
Stretching myself to the limits
But I was never tired
Hey, you made me the best
For once I was more than what I am

But everything's over
Through no one's fault
They'd take you away and I should forget you
I will forget you just like the others
You're just a dead star
You're all dead stars in my universe

I will deny you
Yet you'll always be
At the back of my mind
Lingering in my dreams, tickling me
Who am I kidding?
I just can't forget you.

© 2002